The Best Part of My Life – Motherhood – Women\’s day special

It was an arranged marriage, as it is the case with most of the Indian weddings. I was happily engaged and like every other woman, I had dreams of the wedding and romantic moments that will follow. Bollywood/Kollywood movies played their part perfectly and the dreams grew in size and frequency as the D-date came nearby.

Thinking about it now, I was really gullible, innocent. I was of an impression that life after marriage is the happiest part of life. Likewise, life was happy and smooth for few days and then, there came an emptiness in my life. 

I am a home maker and we live abroad. Maybe these two words can make most of you think as \”Wow What a lucky Girl\” but, life isn\’t a bed of roses. Life abroad isn\’t easy or full of excitement as you see in movies. 

Happiness started fading slowly, duties and responsibilities as a wife replaced it. Excitements turned into boredom. Cooking and sending-off were frustrating. I felt my life traveling on a road that never ends and was monotonous. 

As days passed, I questioned myself what I wanted from life and what is the reason behind all this meaninglessness. The answer was simple. I started longing for someone I could shower my love on and grow them to heights and watch them succeed. In short, I longed for a baby. My own child.

It was easy to come to this realization but the hard part was to prepare our body,  mind, and soul for the baby. I prayed and I meditated to relax and to remove stress from my mind. 

Time moved on and one fine morning, I was in the restroom crossing my fingers and waiting for the result from my pregnancy detector. The result slowly appeared and tears of joy rolled down my face seeing the happy smiley on the detector. I was pregnant 😊. 

I ran to my husband and hugged him tighter and exhaled my breath and showed him the detector but, he looked at me blankly. He couldn\’t understand what his teary-eyed and ironically, smiling wife is showing. He was confused. I told him the magical words. \”I am pregnant\”. He was surprised and it took him a moment to realize we are not two anymore but three. I can never forget the day as it was the happiest day of my life.

One can never exactly explain what it feels to have a baby, a living being of its own, within you. Not even Agatha Christie or J.K. Rowling can write it. It is something that is abstract and can only be felt and realized. It was such an awesome experience. 

Right from the day, I realized I had a baby in my tummy, every day was a new journey filled with happiness. Even when you feel the light twinge of your baby\’s kick, you smile as you realize that\’s the way the baby lets you know that you aren\’t alone anymore. This journey had its own difficulties, but the excitement to see your own child overcame everything else.  

In my last trimester, I got a chance to see my baby\’s face in the ultrasound scan. Oh, my God. I couldn\’t believe my eyes that my cute baby was sleeping inside my womb. It was an unforgettable moment. And what was worse was, the cute face increased my eagerness to meet my baby uncontrollably. 

But, the best things in life aren\’t easy to get. I had no other go but to wait till the Special day. Finally, the day I expected most arrived and  I was taken to the hospital. The doctor advised me for a caesarean and I had to agree to the doctor as it was an emergency. 

I was given epidural instead of usual anesthesia so I was able to see everything that was going on inside the operation theater. The doctor asked me, \”Do you want a girl or a boy?\” and I replied, \”I am fine with anything\”. Then, the doctor smiled and screamed: \”It\’s a girl, dear\”. 

At the same time, I was able to hear my baby crying and tears rolled down my cheeks and I was filled with happiness. At last, I had a satisfaction that my baby came out to this world safely. The nurse brought my daughter and showed her cute little face. Seeing my daughter\’s face was like heaven. She was a cute little angel. She brought us love and happiness in our lives and made our life more interesting. Seeing her I can relate and realize, how I would have been when I was her age. 

Now, she is my biggest source of happiness and she brought my liveliness back. I become a kid when I am with her. I now understand that life is a circle. All our childhood, we wanted to grew up and become like our parents and once after that, we want to be like our children and we search the child within. 

I feel, Happiness is being a woman and giving birth to a girl and growing again with her as a baby girl once again.